believe it or don't

I am officially smoke-free and it's the craziest thing I've ever experienced. Let me just start by saying that some people don't believe in hypnosis because they think it's some kind of voodoo bullshit. It's not. It's an alternate state of relaxation where your nervous system basically goes to sleep while your conscious mind remains awake, eyes closed and very relaxed, but still awake. It is in that state that your mind it open to suggestions, hence, the suggestion that smoking is for the birds. It was creepy people. I'm not going to go into the hypnosis part itself cause it's too long and boring, but I will say that I remember ever single word that was said and for much of the time kept thinking, "is this really gonna work cause he's just telling me to not smoke and, c'mon, who hasn't told me that?" But, I'll be damned. I officially haven't smoked for almost 48 hours. and that shit is crazy. Aside from the pregnancies, I can't remember when I went 2 days( much less 2 hours!)

So, what do I feel like, you say? I actually feel the same as before only I have no desire to smoke. I don't have that, "i'm gonna fucking rip my hair out if I don't smoke" feeling. Most of my fleeting thoughts are of thinking I need to smoke, but then are corrected by "the new me." For example, Wade called me Tuesday afternoon and said, "I'll pick the kids up around 6 and get ice cream." My instant fleeting thought was, "Oh good, I can smoke." And then I remembered that I don't smoke anymore. This scenario has happened about 100 times since I quit. I got rid of the desire, now it's up to me to kick the actual habit part. And it's oh so hard, but sooooooo much easier at the same time. I can totally see how my day was centered and surrounded by smoking just from the fleeting thoughts. I have all the confidence in myself to stay quit and I feel like each day that goes by the thoughts of smoking will fade (like a puff of smoke...sorry, couldn't help myself).

This is the chant he told me while under hypnosis and I keep saying it to myself.
"I am now a non-smoker and will be a non-smoker for the rest of my life"...a bit cheesy, but WHO CARES he somehow tricked my mind into believing it. Give it up for me, people!!!!!!!!!!